I did not know what FIBROMYALGIA was until I was diagnosed this past November 2018. Being the teacher/learner I am, I began to research and found great resources (some really bad). I have become pretty educated about what it is, how it affects me, the whys (as much as there can be), and how to "manage" it so that I can live my life FULLY, on my terms, even while having pain. I feel that sharing my journey can give insight to others on their own, much like others have helped me.
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Whatever Makes You Hopeful and Lightens Your Heart Just a Little...
This is one important part of my yoga space
My long-time friend, Mindy, sent me this card a while back. I framed it because I think it's beautiful and fits in with my candle and vase. The saying in the circle is "Whatever makes you hopeful and lightens your heart just a little..." After finally feeling well enough to get up, take a shower, and attempt yoga at home, this was a great reminder for this day and every day.
Today, I did a slow Yin yoga (a routine that popped up yesterday in my Facebook feed) from Yoga Journal. I added in a few other poses and used my yogi blankets, bolster, and Coregeous ball liberally.
I did each of the poses to the station I've made on Pandora: My Yoga
With Deva Primal
with Krishna Das
with Eva Cassidy
with Carla Bruni
After an hour of practice, it has made me hopeful and has lightened my heart. I'm ready to face the day.
*My Cymbalta withdrawal symptoms are lessened this morning. Not FULLy myself, yet, but I feel myself immerging.
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I believe my form of Fibromyalgia stems from a nervous system that has been chronically in overdrive (fight or flight) mode for all of my life. At 54, that living on adrenalin came to a screeching halt when I could no longer function, forcing me to leave my teaching job and to spend the next few months largely in bed.
As a firstborn to a single mom who suffered from undiagnosed Bipolar and Schizophrenia, I know life was tense and unsure right from the get-go. After living with my single-mom and her parents for the first 6 months of my life, my mom got married to a well-meaning man who had lost his first wife to cancer. He had a 13-year old daughter at the time of their marriage. My mom's emotions were intense. During one fight, my mom punched her fist through a plate-glass window, cutting several long cuts, needing stitches. (My mom told me the story when I asked her about the long, smooth scars she had on…
For those of you who know me, I don't swear....much. In fact, it's only been in the last few years that I even swear at all. This has been the butt of many a teasing for me.
As a teen, as my volleyball teammates would use the full out "S" word or "D" word after missing a serve, I would really strongly say things like "bananas!" My partner teacher for 16 years, feels proud that she has encouraged and trained me to open up to the use of the vulgar vernacular now and then when there are no other words that really capture the sentiment.
So, I am going to just say it; I feel like SHIT! I have not felt this bad since I had viral meningitis (I'm not this bad, but man, it's reminding me of it). Since the purpose of this blog is for me to record my true journey (for healing through the writing and remembering where I've been) and to possibly help others who are dealing with fibromyalgia, I've decided to write this (as I can today becau…
The journey I've taken since my diagnosis of Fibromyalgia
This past June (2018), as my husband and I drove across the country from Michigan to California in our Ford Escape, I began to notice a change in me. It wasn't quite a new thing, but a new intensity and duration. My muscles ached deep, deep within me, gnawing from the inside out.
This is the beginning of a major life change, a journey of sorts that has birthed a new self. It's been hard (almost impossible at times) and is ongoing; however, I have come to be thankful for what it's brought me to.
Being a teacher and a lover of learning, I have done a lot of research. Seeking insight, knowledge, and help from every place I could find it. This blog is to share my path on this journey. One: Just so I can have it recorded somewhere. Two: Hopefully help others through this sharing.
I have come to witness and understand that Fibromyalgia comes in many forms with a variety of symptoms and a variety of ways that p…